This is something I wrote a little while ago, and I'd like to share it into the abyss...

The older I grow, the more I don't know where to put all the love. Everytime I turn around, it is there. It is there with family, in the children I work with, with close friends, with lovers and past lovers, it is there with everyone I interact with. I see so much more love than hatred or greed. Love is so small in scale and so large in scope. It is the slightest gesture of a hand on a shoulder or a smile, but it is also pervasive nature of all existence. And it seems like so much to receive, that how could I ever give back? Certainly, I never gave out this much love, all the love that I see coming towards me. And where to put this love in my heart that is already so full? It seems so overwhelming, like it is always about to overflow, but it can take more and more. I think this is the loaves and the fishes, the widow's oil- there is an endless provision of love. And I see that this is the whole lesson, that everything is Love. That Love is so deeply a part of us that it is us. This is why at our darkest, love enters without expectation, because love takes care of love.

Sometimes, we just care, we care and there is nothing else. How can I BE love, all the time? How can I not just express, not just show, or be in, but BE love? I am thinking that this is the greatest thing I can learn in this lifetime. How can I be, just pure and unadulturated love? This is my (our) true nature, and it is mine (ours) to uncover. Love is truly seeing the oneness and healing from the awareness of that truth.

Just for today, I surrender to the Allness.